Day 12, already?? Where is the time going, it is flying by in the blink of an eye! Each week feels like it comes around quicker and quicker it just feels like deja vu each Friday. I have had a very busy and productive day today, I have got all the dreaded paperwork in order for the wonderful Christine to enter tomorrow. Then we will start packing kits! It is getting so close now, still a bit to be done but I think everything is pretty much under control! I have already started planning the next workshop that will be on the 7th & 8th of September I will have a special guest tutor coming!! You definitely won’t want to miss that one!
This morning all the whistler ducks were back, they are funny how they all perch themselves on the roof of the stables. I like the serious of shots I captured this morning.
This one looks like they are saying “How are we going to get down from here?”
“What about over here?” “You go first, no you go first!”
“Nope try this way!” “Follow Me!”
LOL, Sorry small things amuse me!
Maddie has settled in so well, she has filled out so much in a week, it is like she has always been here. So happy to have a dog around the house again. She is just beautiful.
I love Friday nights one of my favourite shows is on, “So You Think You Can Dance” I think I have watched just about every season of the American version and loved the Aussie one when they had it! I hope they do another one here. So many totally amazing and talented dancers, what they can do with their bodies.
After another late night last night I had an early start again this morning with Solar Panel guys here to fix some of our solar panels tuned up just after 7, they weren’t supposed to be here until 8. So my me time to do my morning pages was out the window this morning it was up go, and I don’t think I have stopped since my feet hit the floor today. OK so I have another busy day ahead of me tomorrow and another early start, think I will need an early night before midnight soon I am starting to get a bit weary! Will be nice if I can get a sleep in on Sunday! I cooked the yummiest tea tonight too, Beef BBQ Ribs in the slow cooker, it was divine!
So I think I will leave it there for now the brain is a bit mush tonight!
Day 11 and I nearly forgot tonight. I have been so busy with getting things organized for the workshop next weekend. It is all coming together. But my head has been overloaded today sorting paper work, sorting out the itinerary and sorting out a new website. Phew Now where was I up to? There are only 2 spots left for the ScrapMedia Workshop, It can be for the weekend or you can come for the one day if it suits, either the Sat or the Sun. You can see more info about it HERE
Here is the sneak peek for the Resin class, I can’t wait to teach this one, it is going to be so much fun! I am just waiting on a few things to finish the reverse canvas class!
Ok, I am looking at a new direction for my website now, so hopefully I will have the shop up sooner rather than later!! It has been a long 6 months waiting but I am moving on! Onwards and Upwards hopefully! It is a bit exciting, although my mind is trying to keep up at the moment!
It has been a long day today, I was up early this morning so I need to finish off a couple more things and head to bed. The Itinerary is done so I will get that out tomorrow!
I am working my way up to a couple of topics that are pretty sensitive to me and I am not quiet sure if I am ready to share yet, But I think it will totally free me if I can! x Sorry I am going to make this short and sweet tonight, I am soo tired. So I will catch you tomorrow.
Hope you have been having a productive week! Hugs x
Day 10!!! GOOO Queenslander!!! Lets hope they can make it 8!!! I am off to friends tonight to watch the game, I think it is going to be a good one!! Soo I am getting in early tonight! I had a reasonably successful day today and got a few things ticked off my list, but then I realized that the next ScrapMedia workshop is sneaking up very very fast. I better get some finalizing done!
Ok I don’t have so much to share tonight, it is going to be a big day tomorrow with lots on. So I hope to get a few more jobs ticked off my list!
On the Maddie front, she herded the chooks in tonight and didn’t try to eat them, I can’t believe how quickly she is learning in just 3 days!! As Christine said it is almost like Tilly is teaching her from the other side! She is so eager to please!
And I really think yesterdays post helped shift something too, It has helped to release that worry about what other people are thinking about me! I am slowly becoming more comfortable in my own skin!! I started going through my wardrobe this morning and have started throwing stuff out! I even had to throw out a pair of Colorado leather shoes that disintegrated when I tried them on! Ooops! LOL I am finding that things don’t last as long here with the higher humidity we get here! I hate shoe shopping but I desperately need new shoes and comfortable ones at that!
Ok I have places to be tonight, Go Queenslanders!!!!! I will catch you tomorrow! 🙂 (For my overseas friends the State of Origin Rugby League Football is on tonight, it is Queensland State against New South Wales State and Queensland have won the last 7. It is the best of Three and they have both won one round each so tonight is the decider, it is going to be a big game!) I am not usually into the football so much since Wil stopped playing, but the Origin is worth watching! Night all!! Cheers! 🙂
Day 9 already, I can’t believe I am still going really! Following through is not always my strong point with this sort of commitment. But I am here again and I have no idea what is going to unfold today.
I did manage to get a couple of pics of Maddie today, she is such a quick learner, is sitting when asked most of the time and can go and get a ball and bring it back. I introduced her to the chooks and cats today and kept her on the lead incase. So far so good, she didn’t really seem interested in chasing them when they were standing around, but as soon as they run she wanted to go after them. Not sure whether she just wants to play with them or try to eat them yet, Not going to give her the opportunity either until she has settled in a bit more. She really has such a lovely nature and is full of energy.
Ok so I have had a bit of time to really think about things these past 9 days. I have really had to rethink why I am doing this blog challenge in the first place. I had to remind myself that I am doing this to find my voice and to find the real me.
Well I think my ego thought better and somehow it come back to writing what I think people want to hear and want to know. I felt so free after the first couple of posts but no so much since then. Your support from the first couple of post made me feel accepted and no so alone and I felt like I was on the right track. But when I didn’t get as many comments on the next couple I quickly felt like I didn’t have anything worthwhile to say and insecurities ran riot again! The ego was taking over again. I quickly realized I had lost track of why I am doing this in the first place. I need to remember that I am not doing this for the wonderful comments so many of you have given me, and while I will always be extremely grateful for all your support, and I can’t thank you enough truly from the bottom of my heart but I know that I need to keep this real first and foremost for myself. And please this is not a request for comments. I am just glad you dropped by and have no expectations of anyone, I know that we are all busy with our day to day lives.
Completely unedited pic of me EEEK! No make up and no photoshop.
Still the question remains who is the real me. For far to long I have let my past define me and for the first time I am starting to entertain the idea that maybe I am free to define the future that I want and who I want to be. After all it is my story isn’t it and I can write the chapters to what ever I would like, so why not entertain the thought that I can be what ever I want to be and have what ever I want in life. With the business coaching with Nicola we have to write our goals and plan our future dreams. I have found this confronting to believe that I can dream big and have big goals. Can I really dare to dream that big? The minute I start dreaming big I get extremely overwhelmed. How can I possible achieve all that? The negative voices say to me that I can’t do that, your not smart enough, or well dressed enough or pretty enough or skinny enough and the voices go on and on. The biggest one at the moment is that I am not smart enough.
But funnily enough the breakthrough I had in the last week was with my style and my wardrobe and my thinking. After pinning a few outfits into my style board on Pinterest I was typically looking for things that I thought I could wear or pull off, but then I had a thought what if I just pin what I would love to wear IF I thought I could wear anything, of course that would mean losing at least 20kg but hey I can dream can’t I. I find that with working from home that I have over time taken less care of my appearance, living in the daggy comfy clothes that I don’t have to worry about getting paint on, you know the ones that you wouldn’t be caught dead in up town. But I am thinking I am going to start a new vision board of the new style I would like to emulate and put it up in my bedroom. Then I am going to have a huge clean out of my wardrobe and start working towards my new image. So this is one little thing that I can start to change. Hopefully everything, even the body starts morphing into my new dream style. My new Pinterest Style Board.
As far as the not being smart enough one goes, I don’t know how to overcome that one. It is so hard not to compare yourself to others, which always makes me feel inadequate compared to others. I feel like a fake at times. Yeah I know I need to give myself more credit and I am proud of all that I have achieved so far, but it is still these little things holding me back. Hopefully it will be something as simple as pinning that can help me shift my attitude and outlook with all my other insecurities too. I still have a long way to go.
So I think on this journey to find the real me Is more about who I want to be and less about who I was. I can’t change any of my past but I can see that it is more about my present that defines me now, and I have the power to write the next chapter in my story for what ever that might be.
On a lighter note I will leave you with this pic I took this afternoon of our cows with a few new friends that have been hanging around for a couple of weeks, did you see all the ducks on the roof?? There have been heaps of these whistler ducks hanging around lately!
OK until tomorrow peeps, Time for me to start shutting everything down now!
And I just want to give a shout out to Theresa, thank you for coming along for the ride hun, you should start a blog I would come and read it. I would love to hear your story too!
